I'm not much of an online poster but I really felt that after this long journey I owed it to myself and to give others hope.
I fell pregnant within three months of trying last time and my pregnancy was going fine apart from feeling rough! However, heartbreakingly I found out that my baby boy had died at 12 weeks at a scan at 13 weeks. I was admitted for medical management of the the miscarriage which didn't work. I was then booked in for surgery and the baby decided to come naturally five minutes before I was due to leave to go to the hospital. They were the worst nine days of my life. The baby came in April 2016.
After the miscarriage I still had pain which I was told would go eventually. It persisted. I kept going back to the Doctor who suggested that I might have IBS. I took peppermint oil for this and the pain still persisted. I got to the point where I could not shake the feeling that something was wrong so I paid for private tests. The consultant said that he thought he could see an endometrioma on one of my ovaries. I went back to my Doctor and I was referred for a laparoscopy. I had that in March 2017 and I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis and was told that my tubes were patent but a little swollen so I could be at slight increased risk of ectopic pregnancy. I was heartbroken all over again and started to fear that I may never get pregnant again.
I was referred for IVF and I was told there was no waiting list which gave me hope. My husband and I decided to go on holiday to try and heal from everything in between and came back tanned and a little refereshed. We had our first appointment and we were told that because we had been somewhere where the Zika virus had been reported (we didn't know this at the time) they couldn't treat us for six months. I was heartbroken for a third time and went home and cried for hours. I then decided to focus on other things (with the help of some low dose antidepressants!) I applied for new jobs because I had been unhappy in mine for a while and had only been staying for the maternity leave (bad I know). I got a new job which is less stressful and more money (great combo!).
Anyways yesterday I found out 18 months after my miscarriage that I'm expecting again. I was in shock and took two tests including a digital to make sure and sure enough both were BFP! One month before we were due to start IVF too!
I didn't record for every day because i was trying not to focus on it too much but this is what I can remember:
6dpo cramps on right side which I assumed were endo pain and got my husband to get me paracetamol. I now think this was implantation pain. Sore throat.
7dpo-9dpo sore throat on an off.
10dpo the most squinty BPF that I discounted it and had a naughty glass of rose! Twinges on left side. Gassy. Bloated. Itchy left breast. Sensitive nipples.
11dpo BFP on acutest early sign and clear and simple digital. Light cramps and gassy.
Thanks for reading and baby dust to all. I know it is early days for me but I am keeping everything crossed for a sticky baby.
I know the heartbreak that can come through this journey of TTC and send hugs and baby dust to all going through this. X x x x